People don't want their lives fixed. Nobody wants their problems solved. Their dramas. Their distractions. Their stories resolved. Their messes cleaned up. Because what would they have left? Just the big scary unknown. - Palahniuk

Saturday, December 13, 2008

scrubscrubrubadubdub

Having the experience is only a tiny part of it; reflection and then the distillation of said experience alongside the reflection (preferably amusing or enlightening) into mere words is a much larger part of it. It being the telling of a story, the assumption of the elusive character of interesting-and-i-am-my-own-person person.

Have wanted an excoriation. The scrubbing of pumice against dead-skin-cracked-grandmother heels, or steel wool on chemically paint-stripped ugly wooden furniture. Have wanted to feel clean and clear of the past, of mind clutter and attic-brain dust. Of mistakes or impressions of mistakes or hallucinations of impressions of mistakes. What's holding me back? What's holding us all back?

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forget the past